The Defining Moment?

I have always wondered what was greater, more and better in life than I currently have.
I knew it had to be! Some people inspired me with the way they lived their life, others claimed to have all the answers to what it takes to be happy one day, some day, and then there were others who struggled to be that and have that.

This took me on a wild goose chase to achieve that! It became my single most vital endeavour.

 This was my mission through different stages of my life. When I was a student and struggled to be something that I must be, in order to exist in this world and have a self worth, I then I moved on to a glamorous job of being a flight attendant, a young girl struggling with relationships, lonely sometimes, excited with the adventure I had in my life yet feeling directionless and wondered what else lay ahead of me and if I could make the right “decisions” then I would be happy in the near or distant future.

Life brought me to another stage of being a wife and a mother. This was a milestone that was euphoric for a while as it is for so many women until I began to question who I really was besides the roles I was playing, how I can still have my life after having dedicated my life to my family ? What would I love to do, what hobbies, interest would make me happier? I took the next step which came pretty naturally to me, was into the “spiritual seeking”. After all I had always been contemplative, tad bit serious, and the key ingredient was that if was looking for happiness beyond my mundane existence.

After years of soul searching, collecting information, receiving healing and being a healer and lots and lots of breathing, I still felt it eluded me.  What was it that eluded me? Consciousness!

Did it really elude me or had I made it a destination? Something I will have one day, in the form of happiness in my next life, if I had toiled enough, compromised enough and been good enough I would have it ,wouldn’t I?  Or when I get “enlightened”, perhaps then I will have consciousness? Until then I may just be  the who needs to be fixed, changed, healed, and the non enlightened being. Then literally my question led to some really great questions!

What if that is a lie? What if the endeavour was the trap AND What if Consciousness was not a destination?!

We all speak of Consciousness, to many it’s a word that they don’t know what it really means. For others it’s a concept, some try to define it, and.... some are least concerned with it. 

When I heard Gary Douglas , founder of Access Consciousness say,” Consciousness includes everything and judges nothing.” It just changed my world! Every time I hear that it adds, expands my universe in ways I am not even cognitively aware off.

So, You could be a healer, seeker, doctor, artist, homemaker, lawyer, have a  corporate job, business person my guess is you are looking at having happiness, greater possibilities, more money, better health, love, ease, and a capacity to make your life the best one no matter what the circumstances are. Could that be what a conscious life looks like?!

Then how do you choose in that direction, how do you step into a world like that? What can you add to your life in big and seemingly small ways to be the version of you?

What if you were given pragmatic tools that no matter who you are or where you are in your life you can be all of you? What if consciousness was a moment to moment choice?

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